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My Hunger Will Go On

This morning I weighed myself at 240.8. This is a nice big step down from my starting weight of 246. I got onto the treadmill for my ten minute morning flail, and discovered my maximum running time increased from two minutes to two and a half minutes. I barely even coughed like a cold miner. I went to gaze at myself in the mirror for a while. You definitely can't notice any change yet, but I still felt so encouraged and confident that it made me feel extremely positive about myself. Then I got to work. I thought I was gonna have a late client, so I had my lunch at 11:00. That was my first mistake. Far too early. I started getting hungry again, I kid you not, at noon, when I normally eat. I tried to fill up with a ritz cracker sandwich pack and a sweet and salty trailmix pack, but I had no luck. This being the office of hell, the kitchen was full of tempting treats; a frosted bundt cake, mini carrot cake cream cheese frosting sandwiches, another dessert I didn't examine cl...
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Last Christmas I Gave Myself Heartburn

It's been a rough couple days. We had two snow storms in three days, I live up north where the snow is bad, and our snowblower is broken so... free exercise! No gym membership required! I'm down back to 242.8. My starting weight was 246, so it's not a ton of progress, but at least it's not 244 (Christmas Eve weight.) I did break my calorie limit for Christmas yesterday, as a combination of stressed - emotional - holiday eating. I didn't overdo it so much that it was impossible to get back on the horse this morning, although I did not feel capable of running, so I walked instead and walked the treadmill until I reached the distance I usually run for. So exercise was lower intensity and longer today. I want to know how I can escape all these damn parties. Christmas and new years are too close togehter, for starters, and on top of that, every social sub group I'm involved with has to have their own damn party. High school college friends, party. In laws, party....
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Guess who fell off a treadmill today?

This gal! Finishing up a medium black Dunkin Donuts coffee. The morning was rough, during which I underwent the first treadmill run of my adult life. I'm very glad I bought a used model off of a friend because I would not want strangers in the gym to have seen that fail of epic proportions. For starters, saying I went for a "run" is a generous statement. I can't actually run for longer than two minutes or my lungs start to seize up like an old man's. So I go back and forth running as long as I can and walking the rest of the time, making the whole thing take up about ten minutes. How the biggest losers do it out of nowhere I couldn't begin to tell you. I thought my heart was going to give up and bail right out of my chest. In case you're wondering what this Herculean effort yielded me, it was 70 calories burned. Some numbers for ya, I'm 26, this morning I weighed myself at 242.6, and my calorie goals per day are 1200 + exercise (sort of). I don...
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This is the problem

I waited and waited to eat lunch and then I had a Blake's organic personal chicken pie. It was DELICIOUS. 370 calories of buttery flaky crust. And it took me like, fifteen minutes to eat, and that was a beautiful fifteen minutes. But now I still have this feeling like I'm not done. I still want to eat. Eating time. Eat eat eat. What do I do? How do I wait out munchy time? I'll write back if I succeed.
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Day One

I bought a domain name for this but I'm not sure it worked. At work in my crowded office. Feeling kind of nauseous today. 11:20am, 214 down, 1026 available in my budget until I exercise. Don't worry, that's plenty if you're as sedentary as I am. I don't run around at my job. I sit and chat with people. I don't know if you're supposed to weigh yourself every week or every day, but if I look at a chart of my weight loss, my pounds sharply decline every time I weigh every day and the second I stop weighing, I end up going for a week without bothering to do anything about my massive weight problem. I currently am 243.8 lbs and 5'8". I know weight loss isn't impossible, I've seen middle aged women in my life get crazy thin in a startling amount of time. I'm 26, if it's possible for them, it has to be possible for me too, right? I hooked up with a subreddit called LoseIt which is dedicating to calories in calories out (CICO) and re...
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